Hello

Been awhile... I've actually moved to a different blog (since I forgot that I had this one); it's called MaiMel

Lots of changes have happened. I don't write as much as I did previously. I work one job now as opposed to having three jobs like several years ago.

I've been tired a lot. I'm not sure why. It's been a humdrum existence. But I'm alive so there's that :)

What else to say? I moved in with my boyfriend. We are trying to start a family (and very much enjoying all the practicing ;) ...)

I'm learning Korean. Cooking more. I love a man who makes me smile and laugh/cry ...he drives me crazy. 

He completes me in a way that I didn't think possible. Yes, being a romantic and all that. 

So there... at some point, I'll post my new blog's link on here. Maybe if I remember to do so. Anyways, hope everyone else is okay out there. 

Positive thoughts :) 

Tired

Is it normal to feel so tired ... Every day, I am tired.

I don't know how long I can do this. Alone.
It doesn't bother me.
It is lonely, though.

Alone.

Today...

I told my mother the reason why I have been "sick" ... That it wasn't because I had a cold or a flu. I mean it could be -- I do have a weakened immune system. But it's partly because of the chemo.

I'm more exhausted. I cannot help it. It's like I cannot get enough rest no matter how much I get.

In any case - I don't like feeling weak. Or be seen as weak. I don't like crying. All of this is tiring, exhausting. And it is going to be an entire year. I have done my first one already. Only eleven more to go. But still.

I don't want to.


But I don't want to give up, either.

What do I do?