Come Over

This song by Kenny Chesney has been in my head since I first heard of it play on WFMS. I find myself humming the song out loud while I'm at work. Also, I can't wait to see Mr. Chesney on the Brothers of the Sun tour with Mr. McGraw next weekend. It's going to be epic.

The Dark Knight Rises premiered last night, and I saw it at Legacy Cinema with my main man. Sad that the Dark Knight trilogy is now finished. Thrilled about The Hobbit movie coming out to theaters two days before my birthday :)

Anyways ...

I've been thinking about many different things. Mainly on how to cope with my depression. I have an appointment to see someone on Monday at 6:30pm. I just want to start feeling better. And I don't like feeling  this way...and my stress combined with job plus other things are driving me bonkers.

The toilet has been my best friend of late since I've been vomiting whenever I'm feeling too overwhelmed. Hmm, since I wasn't editing myself, I have said more than I wanted to...I guess I'll stop there. Hopefully, I can keep my sanity. Otherwise, I may find myself wishing for a padded room complete with a straight-jacket.

I have to keep reminding myself to not lose hope.

Stress free? Ha, I wish!

So, I skipped the entire month of June. The skinny- I received a promotion. And I start July 10. I'm overwhelmed, but not with work. Though, work is also overwhelming, very much so. Yet, somehow, I'm trudging through it. I feel like I've stepped into a rabbit hole and I'm Alice, but I'm definitely not in wonderland. The characters are here,though-- the mad queen of hearts, the deranged mad hatter, and don't forget- the white rabbit. I'm probably not making sense. Nowadays, I mostly carry conversations in my head because at least I know I kinda make sense to me... Sometimes. Lol. In all honesty and seriousness, I just don't know why I bother. It's not like anything I do matter. I hate it when plans are in progress, and then, bam, no plans at all. Blah. So, now I'm stuck with three days off of nothing to do. Fantastic, isn't it? I watched the last Harry Potter films a couple of nights ago...made me realize that books are better than movies. (sometimes) And I think I'm done rambling... I had something to write, but I didn't know how to word it. Hell, I do know. I just don't want to write out... Maybe next month, or next year.

Just a quickie

Yesterday, I finished my training, and now have to schedule an appointment for my 75 day evaluation. Exciting stuff. Who knew I'd be in healthcare? It's hard work, though. Like ridiculous hard work. But it can be rewarding in its own way. Some days, I find myself missing having a girlfriend, you know, someone to go have lunch with when my man is at the gym, or just have some girl time. But I was never the type to sit around and gossip or even talk about meaningless stuff, and yet, I do miss it. Some days. Having some nonsensical conversations about how we got stuff free or discounted is kinda fun ;) In truth, I miss the days where I don't have to think of what I want to say and just say it to a close friend that isn't my man (and he knows me in and out). Now, the girls I had in my life--- two that I'm no longer close to, not really, and we were the closest three before, and now, we are mere strangers. One is a three-hour drive, but we do talk on a constant basis. Two is where I used to live, who are both newly married. Another one in Virginia, and she is just wonderful; I miss you, Chelle. Come back soon to visit! At least, I'm glad I have some but they are a bit far away. Making new friends isn't hard. Most of my new friends are coworkers. Fascinating group of diverse people. Just miss hanging out with someone. And lately, I've been in this weird limbo of anxiousness...I'm waiting for something to happen, it seems, it's going to be big. I can just tell. Big as in I might saying "yes" ...maybe, but we've talked about it not happening now; maybe in the next few years :)