Thursday, January 19, 2012

let's revisit last year, shall we?

After a somewhat-brief hiatus, I'm sort of back to the world of blogging. And as the title of this entry indicates, let's take a walk down memory lane.

Last year was a year of many changes... the year started out strong, wavered for awhile, went up and down like a roller-coaster, and ended on a hopeful note.

I thought of writing this long entry about things I've found out and still trying to decipher through, and now, I'm not sure if I want to because most of what was discovered is a bit of a painful wound to me. I'm not exactly certain what I should do about it. It's like a puzzle of which I know for a fact that I don't have all the pieces to, yet.

My past remains shrouded in mystery and for now, my curiosity's appetite has been curbed. So, in the very least, the dragon lays undisturbed and asleep... until the next influx of explorers decide to uncover more answers by using their arrows and swords of which are fortified with questions. I'll find out one way or the other the knowledge I see from the sleeping dragon.

Aside from my past, everything sort of remained the same: I gained new friendships, lost a few friends, have had some friends become more like acquaintances, and have been in the most rewarding relationship I've had in my adult life. B and I, we're not the most compatible couple, but somehow, we make it work.

And with these friendships growing and dying, I've learned more about myself, and I know that I'm loner by choice. I like being social, and can be a butterfly, but let's face it: I'm a loner. I like my corner, and yes, it can be lonely. Yet, I'm more an observer. I'm not much for the spotlight. And last year, that spotlight was on me far more than it has ever been in my life.

I've changed - a lot- last year, and I'm not sure if I'm happy with the changes or not, but I do know that I miss some people, and others of whom I've gotten closer to without meaning to, well, that was a surprise- the best kind of surprise. It shows that even mere strangers can be the best of pals. It's a comforting thought nonetheless.

I guess that's life. And the start of this year has been fascinating.

I can't wait to see what else this year has in store for me.

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