Saturday, February 12, 2011

a third job, really, mai toast? say it ain't so!

Um, yea. My potential third job starts mid-March, and if I'm complaining about busy now... lol. Wait until mid-March rolls around... who knows. Maybe I'll become a zombie.

Right now, I'm on the maybe list for working, and it'll have to be the evening shift for me. I'm not looking forward to changing my hours at job 1, though, because I will have to basically rush from one job to the next on Mondays through Fridays (it'll be like 730a-4p, 5p-9p).

A part of me is thinking maybe I should say no to this one ... but this possible job 3 utilizes my Bachelor's degree. [& it caters to my grammar Nazi side :smiles:]

... I haven't made up my mind, yet. AND next week, Miss Admissions Person from kick-ass law school is going to call me again. /sighs

I want to go sooo bad, but really cannot afford law school at the moment. And the kick-ass law school costs about 75k x 3 years = I don't really want to be in that much more debt. At least, not right now. Now, if the in state law school would freakin' take me off the wait-list, then law school is more feasible to do. Well, not this year, but definitely in the next couple of years.

And to be quite honest, I really don't need a full-time job plus two part-time jobs. {And I go back to school in the fall so I can get my certificate so that I can get that raise, too}...

Friday, February 11, 2011

Thursday, February 10, 2011


Coffee is soooo good that really, what else could you drink?
Water? Soda? All lame compared to this dark delicious delight.
"Be undeniably good. When people ask me how do you make it in show business or whatever, what I always tell them and nobody ever takes note of it ‘cause it’s not the answer they wanted to hear — what they want to hear is here’s how you get an agent, here’s how you write a script, here’s how you do this — but I always say, ‘Be so good they can’t ignore you.’ If somebody’s thinking, ‘How can I be really good?’, people are going to come to you. It’s much easier doing it that way than going to cocktail parties."— Steve Martin
You know, Mr. Martin, you are quite correct. If you're so good at your chosen profession, how the hell could you be ignored? 

With that said... I know some people who are so amazingly great at their jobs that I often wonder if they will ever decide to branch out of their comfort zone and try something different, something that may or may not increase their apparent amazing capabilities... I mean, it's not bad that you're so great at one thing, but what if that one thing you're so good at, someone else comes along and this individual is more amazing than you are? What happens then? Do you step up your game, or just keep doing the same thing you've been doing after several years? Wouldn't you be worried about perhaps losing your job? Or being downgraded to a different department?
I think these days you have to be willing to be so versatile and have many [acquired] skills. You have to bring your A game every day, and not slack off [though, if you're feeling ill, can't really fault you there]. You have to be at your best at every second of every minute in every hour daily. 24/7 giving it your 110% (or more if you're an real over-achiever). 
/shrugs ... with me, I try to do my best, but I know for a fact that I don't always give each task that I do my "all" ... I like to choose my battles and go accordingly. There's a war that I'm involved in, and I can't always exhaust myself in every little thing that I do. (I'd be too tired to do anything else, and frankly, most of the time, I'm running on fumes).
However, I want to be so good at one thing, and I feel as if I haven't quite achieved that. I have many skills, and every day, I'm learning something new, which is nice because I don't feel bored -though, I do still feel bored at times, because things are redundant and I don't like that- and I'm almost always doing something. 

I need to take a break, though. I really do, but whenever I get free time... oh wait, I don't know what this free time concept is any more. Since starting this new job, I'm growing in leaps and bounds. Learning so much. It's insane. And the other job that I have, there's constant training... brain overload. I need a hobby or two to keep myself grounded. I need time to see and hang out with friends. I need time [and he needs time, too] to just chill and be with Dr.Fast&Furious... ((side note: "frustrating" doesn't even begin to describe how I feel... "missing" is more apt to be quite honest. "missing quality time spent" would be the phrase.))

I have come to realize that the word "busy" sucks majorly. Other words that also share in "major suckyness" are the following: workaholic, overtime, ..... and other words that I can't think of at the moment. 

I strive to maintain a balance between work and fun, and most times, I do prevail, but it's so hard. Shouldn't come as a surprise to me because nothing has ever come easy to me. Oh, god forbid, if my life ever becomes predictable at all because right now, there are too still too many unknowns, and stability is something I'll never have. I'm always going to have a roller-coaster kind of life with long windy ups-and-downs and don't forget the sharp turns. 

I'm not a big fan of roller-coasters; I hate the waiting in line for a ride that doesn't even last a minute. But, the adrenaline rush? I do like that. It's just that lately, as I have said already, I've been running on fumes. I would love to have a free weekend... just doing absolutely nothing.
To do nothing... man, I'd feel lazy. End up doing something like rearrange my room or my closet [as I've been known to do on occasion :winks:]

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

guess this is where my girly side comes in ...

I like receiving presents, but I like the act of giving presents even more. [Ask my friends. I just love seeing the reaction on their faces!] However, a bouquet of flowers somehow always gets to me. It gets me undone. [Also, chocolate is over-rated. I never really acquired the taste for chocolate (only when it's that time of the month, and it only lasts for one day that I crave it). Flowers to me is like what chocolate is to a normal girl.]

Vibrant colors always makes a dull day go away.
And I don't know why because when one receives a bundle of flowers, essentially one is receiving dead flowers. I know, right? Kind of depressing, but that's the fate of all flowers that are so damn beautiful that we human beings can't help, but pluck them from the nourishing earth.

A beautiful combo: tulips and orchids. Just perfect.
With that being said, I do like receiving flowers. I mean, what girl doesn't? I like the feeling that goes along with getting a bouquet of flowers to be quite honest... makes me melt a little more inside actually, especially when the flowers are from someone whom I harbor feelings for. And receiving a bouquet certainly brings a smile to my face.

Also, brownie points if the flowers happened to be my favorite* ones. /winks

*And no, roses aren't my favorite. I don't do mainstream faves it seems. Again, I never did claim to be a normal girl. I have been told what's wrong with me to not want chocolate... I just don't.

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

I heard a quote today...

It was,     You can judge a person by the enemies s/he makes.
"Et tu, Brute?"
... and it's making me think. I wonder what my enemies would say about me because everyone has enemies. There's no way that someone can be so loved that they don't have any enemies. And I know who some of my enemies are; some of them are people I've known my entire life. That old adage, "keep your friends close & your enemies closer" rings quite true for me. 
I think enemies help shape who we are as individuals. There's no way that every one is well-liked, and it is so much in our nature to hunger to be accepted. I think we conform too much to please every one else, and not enough rebelling is being done. I know that I went through a rebellious phase, and sometimes, I'm still fighting for who I want to be without losing ground in who I have already become.

You can easily judge someone, too, by the friends s/he have. Though, in that instance, anyone can really be called a friend. These days, I know the difference between an acquaintance and friend; it's almost as easily distinguishable in deciding who is a foe or ally. (Almost because enemies, like friends, can come in many different forms).

An acquaintance to me could be someone I've just met like striking up a conversation at the same coffee place that I frequent to during the week (for instance, my barista at Starbucks on Stop 11; he would be an acquaintance to me, not quite friend), or a coworker at a new job. Not quite friends, and certainly not enemies. You're still at the playground, where kindergartners -those messy, pick your noses 4 or 5 year olds- learn how to share, and well, become best friends just because you have the same color bow in your hair [true story: though, she's married now and lives happily down under with her husband; one of these days, I'll make my way to the Outback so she can teach me some Aussie slang :winks:] ... where was I? I digressed there. Oops.

But, I think you get the point that I'm trying [ha, not even attempting now] to make.

Everyone we meet in our daily activities has the potential to be a catalyst in our lives. Whether it's friend or foe, someone's way of thinking may rub you the wrong one. Or perhaps, incite an answering passion in you and you wonder where the hell have they've been your entire life. (I've often wondered about this in my life, referring to some people I've come across lately. Still haven't quite figured that out, and a part of me is fine with not knowing, but the other not-so quiet part is eagerly awaiting answers, answers that may never come into fruition.)
I often wonder how many people have met their opposites [or if you want to be romantic about it, soul-mate] and thought to themselves, "Is this person standing across from me a potential confidante or are they going to stab me in the back some day?"

Monday, February 07, 2011

something to put a smile on your face

"I'd rather be natural than plausible. 
For it's in my nature to accomplish the impossible."

Sunday, February 06, 2011

fave commercial from Superbowl 45

And oh yea, I won my bet. :smiles: